STRANGE LOVE

The sun was shining in my eyes and gave me all the happiness I needed. 

I spent all my time with the sun and only with him

I forgot about the moon

Forgot about the stars

I didn't even think about that one planet that I loved so hard.

My eyes were only there for the sun.

The sun and only him.

Now the sun is gone and the stars won't take me back.

I'm hiding in the sun's darkness.

Nowhere to go

because everyone left

and I feel alone

the first ones weren't clear

but maybe I just didn't realize that it was here

time went by and the longer it took

the more obvious it was

I wasn't like the others

my mind was filled with thoughts

I'm different

I can see it

I have been feeling it for a while

signs of feelings

that shouldn't be here

atleast that's what they told me

and maybe that's not fair

And then it was there.

It came in like a rainbow in the sky

like a butterfly finding his flower

like the stars touching the moon

like a ring slipping around your finger

it was there

and it would never go away again

never and never

the feeling crawled into my entire body

every nerve, every bone

the smallest tip of my fingers

I could feel it everywhere.

A joyful scream echoed through the building

'I love myself'

and with those words everything was said…

I'm walking on the clouds with my love

until thunder comes and ruins all the good

Clouds turn gray and start making sounds

it keeps getting worse and I don't know for how long

i try to walk further but my body is frozen

the thunder keeps yelling, keeps hating and shaking

until i fall through

my and my love fall from the clouds

down in the darkness of our thoughts

Do we deserve to be hated? Just because we love?

the hateful yells fill my mind while i try to get over it

at the end of the road is a rainbow

we just have to get through this storm

Why did I have to be on team b?

I'm not complaining but it would have been easier

all the tears, all the smiles, all the thoughts

they wouldn't have been there

I prayed to God to switch themes

I prayed to God 'why am I on team b?'

but now I will have to move on

Team b is my home, my team, my group

and I can't change

so i spread my wings and fly real high

because yes i'm gay

but why?